Anxious & Exhausted

As always, I've waited WAY too long between my last blog post and now and I'll be honest that I don't have any pics to share today, or at least am too lazy to upload any for now (some are on my phone and some are on my camera... not many have been transferred to the computer lately), sorry.

This morning I had an amniocentesis to test the lung maturity of Miss Casey. The preliminary results came back inconclusive or as they say "equivocal". So, a sample has been sent off to the U of M for further testing. I have an appointment for induction set up for tomorrow morning but if the test shows that C isn't ready, then we'll have to reschedule it (tentatively) for next week and do another amnio next Monday. Needless to say I'm beyond anxious to find out the results and get things rolling with meeting my sweet girl.

Tegan is in the throws of another phase of the terrible 2's... I don't know if it's because he is almost 3 and needs to go out [of the 2's] with a bang (as they say), or senses my stress, or if it's just an age appropriate phase, or if he's going through a growth spurt or what, but it's AWFUL! It's probably a combination of the above and more. Regardless, the kid can scream and yell and throw a tantrum like no other. It's beyond exhausting to not only witness these episodes but also try and get him to settle down. We are back to the point of putting him in his room and holding the door closed (as opposed to just time-out in the corner or something like that) - only to then listen to him scream (with a horrible rage and anger in his voice) and bang on the door. I try to keep my cool and not raise my voice and I do everything I can not to respond by yelling myself - but the truth is that I do sometimes get to the point of raising my voice. I haven't yelled or cried in front of him, so I think that's good, right? When he calms down he can always tell me why he had to go to his room and what he needs to do to not have it happen again, but I guess he's just not to the age/maturity of following through on putting that knowledge into action.

Any and all suggestions on how to deal with the anxiety of waiting are welcomed (I already went grocery shopping with the anticipation of cooking some meals to freeze, but haven't gotten to the cooking part yet). Same thing goes with getting T to behave/listen better... or at least minimize the tantrums.

Not sure what I'm gonna do now, but need to do something... I'm due to blog about Thanksgiving and Christmas (we were horrible parents, by the way - hardly took any pictures of gift opening and such. I guess we were just too caught up in taking in the experience ourselves and enjoying the moment).

For more up-to-the-minute info on the status of Casey's impending arrival, you can check facebook (if you're on there). We learned this morning that for some reason I can't blog from my iPhone, so we'll do our best to email, text and facebook any updates.

Love to all!
~j