Saturday, May 30, 2009

Outnumbered

Well, I'm officially outnumbered at our house - not just by boys/males (that happened when Tegan was created)... now it's by bike racers. Yes, Tegan entered the world of bicycle racing at Thursday night's Buck Hill race.

I thought for sure he'd be intimidated by all the music and screaming parents - uh, I mean cheering fans. The little guy fooled me, though, and wore a smile from ear to ear the entire time.
YAY! I'm guessing he'll be doing all the races (kids' races) from now on... guess I'll have to start bringing a "real" camera to the races again.
Got these with my cell phone. The video isn't too great quality, but I think the still shots are pretty good. Enjoy!

Love to all!
~j

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Springtime Fun!

Before I get into the Springtime fun... I'll backtrack to several posts ago - I left a reminder of 2 stories to share - one being that from IKEA (which I already shared about) and the other being of Captain Tegan... how did I forget about Captain Tegan. I took me looking back at my post to remember what it was I was going to write about (other than IKEA that is... I could never really forget Captain Tegan as he's nearly a nightly visitor at our house). Captain Tegan is who Tegan becomes after his bathtime... there will be no pics of Captain Tegan on here as that'd be inappropriate 'cause Captain Tegan only wears his birthday suit. :) Here's a few precursors of the Cap'n though :)


WOW! Can you believe it? I sure CAN! Thank GOD the end of school is only 6 days away. YAHOO! I'm pretty sure Tegan can sense the approach of summer, too. We have the hose out almost nightly and he sure does LOVE it - as soon as we turn it off the smiles and laughs turn to this along with the announcement of "I need the hoses!" How did this kiddo learn that when you really want something you tell people that you need it and they might take you more seriously. Oh boy! I'm not so sure Tegan's friends like the hose like T does, though. Poor Alex...
At least they've been playing relatively well together :)

Another aspect of parenthood we've been able to enjoy more-so over the recent months is the phenomenon of Saturday morning cartoons... the phenomenon being how they are so entrancing to our little ones and allow us mommies and daddies to zone out and/or do our own thing for a while before we really get the day started.
Then there are the choo-choos that distract T during the commercials... And the shows back on :)
As I post this I cannot forget what today marks - 4 months ago our precious Ty was called to heaven... 4 months... 1/3 of a year... it's amazing how quickly time passes (even though at times it seems to be crawling along at a snails pace). What is even more amazing is the power and grace of our Lord who is the source of our healing. Yes, they say time is the only healer, but only when we are given that time by our gracious God. I want to take this time - right now - to thank all of you who continue to pray for our family, our healing and the peace that we can only be given through our Lord, Jesus Christ. Please keep the prayers coming... or going to Him, that is :) Know that each of you is in our hearts and our prayers, too. Even if we've never met or don't know that you are there/here supporting us in our journey... we pray for everyone whose lives we have touched and who have touched ours in return. Thank you and God bless you!
Love to all,
~jenn (and family)
P.S. I know I didn't post anything on here about the fabulous Memorial Day weekend that we got to spend with Brendan's side of the family... I (who am convinced that Ty took 1/2 my brain with him to heaven) forgot to bring a camera (any camera) to Rochester... so all of the weekend's photos are currently on Brendan's mom's or sisters' cameras. I'll get some in a few weeks when we visit them again for our nephew Andrew's baptism. :) Thanks for being patient.

Monday, May 11, 2009

Bikes & Chicks (not to be confused with biker chicks)

As I think I mentioned, Saturday was the first bike race of the season for our family. Tegan had a great time despite the cool (I'd even call it coldish) temps. Our photographer/biker friend Dana was there and took a few shots of T... I didn't realize I was in the pictures to - haha. I thought they turned out pretty cute, though, regardless of my semi-smile. :)

Then there are the chicks... Today after school I picked Tegan up from daycare and then we went back to school to visit my friend Chrissy and the "baby chickens" (as T calls them) that her class is taking care of. I was pretty sure Tegan would like seeing them, but didn't know how ENTHRALLED with them he'd be. It was so sweet to watch and T was so very gentle with the one Chrissy took out of the cage for him to see more up close and even hold. :) Needless to say, I think we'll be hearing about the chicks for quite a while and may have to go visit them again before they go back to the farm.

Hope you all had a wonderful Monday. Can't complain about mine and I even got to go spend some "alone time" at Target (you other moms know what I mean - a trip to Target just isn't the same when the kid(s) go with you).
Love to all!
~j

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Ouch!

Just when I thought I was really feeling better - this week, well the past 7 or 8 days, happened. I briefly mentioned in yesterday's post how it's been a tough week. I didn't mention how I've cried every day... not much, but still. That hasn't happened in what seems like months, but who knows how long - regardless, a long time.

Why do I have such a sweet, sweet little boy? T was draggin' his feet (literally) as we were walking into church, a different church than usual. (we thought we'd go somewhere different for a change). He said that he wanted to go home and so I explained "We need to go to church because it's God's house and we can learn more about Him." What does he respond with, almost instantaneously? "Go to Ty's home" and then he picked up the pace a bit and walked inside with no hesitation.

I hurt... I love but I still hurt.
~me

Saturday, May 09, 2009

Busy As a Bee

The past few weeks have been very busy for us - this past week especially so for me as I held my spring parent-teacher conferences. For me that meant 3 nights at school until 8pm... for T that meant little time with Mommy and after the first 2 nights it really started to wear on him. My sweet little boy is just too darn smart! On the 2nd night of conferences I explained to Tegan that I had to go back to work and talk to other mommies and daddies (I had picked him up after work from daycare and took him to our neighbors' house so that they could watch him until Brendan got home). No sooner than I had finished my sentence Tegan countered with "Mommy go talk to Alex's [neighbor friend] mommy and daddy. No go back to work." The little dude not only made the connection - WOW - but he's got the vocabulary and verbal maturity to put it into a sentence that makes sense! Then at dinner that night T explained to Brendan, "Mommy gone talking to mommies and daddies for 2 nights. I want Mommy to come home now." I'm not gonna lie - I teared up when I heard that. OK - I'm going to backtrack a ways because a few posts ago I said I'd tell the Ikea story and one other, which now I can't remember the other story, so I'll just do the Ikea one. We were in Ikea (I think it was while I was still on maternity/sick leave) and T and I were standing in the lighting area sampling a free cookie when he complained to me that there was water on his pants... I brushed it off [mentally] as being snow that had gotten on his pants and melted, though thought it was strange how it hadn't melted until we had meandered through the entire upstairs and 1/2 of the downstairs of the store AND that there had been enough to make a puddle on the floor (yes, there was a small puddle). Well, T kept pulling on his pants so I decided to investigate more... oh boy! After peeking in the front of T's pants I learned that it wasn't a puddle of melted snow, but rather a puddle of Tegan pee. The stinker had pulled his diaper so much at some point that it had come undone at the side and had come 1/2 way off. When he peed there wasn't anything to catch it (specifically a diaper) so his pants, leg, and the floor got that pleasure. To make matters worse, we had stopped at Ikea on our way to go have lunch with my sister Amanda. Needless to say our Ikea trip was cut a bit short and we had to make a pit-stop at Target on the way to St. Paul to get T some new/dry pants. Oh, did I mention that I didn't realize it was pee until long after we'd left the lighting department? Whoops...
What else is there to brag on Tegan about? Definitely not all of the fits he's been throwing when he doesn't get his way... let's just say (as I think I mentioned before) that we are definitely feeling the wrath of the "Terrible Two's" at our house! UGH! On the bright side, Tegan's sleeping pattern has finally changed for the better. The past few weeks have been heaven as far as sleeping goes. Tegan now sleeps pretty solid from when he goes to bed (8ish) until about 5 or 5:30 in the morning! At that point, he wanders into our room, climbs into bed (my side as always) and falls back asleep until one of us gets up (or 6:30ish, whatever comes first... though on occasion he'll sleep past 7 in our bed, but that screws up the get ready for the day schedule on weekdays so we only allow that on weekends).
I had to laugh, I changed T's sheets the other day and put one of Brendan's pillowcases on T's pillow (note: if you don't already know, Brendan will ONLY sleep on pillowcases that were his when he was a child because they are so "loved" and soft. HA!). Well, Tegan announced to me that that was NOT his pillow and that he didn't want it. He then threw it from the bed and slept sans-pillow until I put his pillowcase back on (after it'd been washed) and then he immediately put the pillow back on the bed. I guess he inherited his Daddy's stubbornness when it comes to pillows.
Hm... I suppose I can say a few things about how things are going outside of Tegan. This past week has been really hard on me. I'm guessing that it's because we are starting to do things that we either hadn't planned on doing because we'd have Ty here or we are doing things that we'd planned on doing with Ty here but we're doing them w/o him. Today was a good example of that - it was the first bike race of the season. I had envisioned the races being difficult to go to, with a new baby and a 2-year old that is, but something that I could handle and at least I'd have the support of other wives and girlfriends to watch T and of course I had been excited to show off my newest little guy... that obviously didn't happen, at least not this year.
Instead the difficulty became more mental for me - anticipating people asking where the baby was, what we named him, etc... people who aren't on Facebook and readers of Brendan's or my blogs... Brendan had that happen on the trail a week or 2 ago - someone who didn't know asked how the baby was. Similarly I knew it'd be awkward because a lot of people don't know what to say so they just don't say anything. We know no one means any harm when they ask where or how the baby/Ty is and even when those that know about Ty don't say anything, but it still hurts nonetheless. I have to remind myself that those that say nothing probably do so because they don't want to make me/us sad and don't know that I love to talk about Ty, how beautiful and tiny he was, the plans that I had had for him, how Tegan has dealt with the whole situation so amazingly - and when I am asked about "the baby", about my Ty, (because I know it'll happen at some race sometime it'll still be hard for me to say the words "we lost him" or "he passed away" or "he didn't make it." I know I'll tear up and probably make the person feel bad for asking, though I hope that they don't, it's by no means my intention... it's just me grieving... it's just a reminder to me of the reality, that this life that I'm living isn't just a bad dream that doesn't seem to end, that I can't wake up from.
I'll switch gears, again. Let's go back to Tegan. He's such a big boy (did I mention that yet?!) ;) He has now gone pee in the potty 2 times in the past 2 days! Tonight he even got out of the bathtub to use the potty. I thought he needed to poop when he did that but no-sir-ee, he got out, plopped himself down and pushed out a good amount of pee! WOW! He was SO proud of himself. He tried to do it earlier today too, but we didn't make it in time and he ended up peeing in his diaper. He still sat on the pot and tried to push some out just to make sure the bladder was empty - it was. :)
Well... I'm all blogged out for a while... but my hope is to start doing it more frequently again. :)Hope you enjoyed the pics - pretty random, but cute!
Love to all!
~j